Before I proceed, I will like to wish everyone a Happy Chinese New Year.

Finally, the year of DoG is over... I duno will I be fine anot? Beginning of a new year I hope to see the rainbow soon.

Why I can't be like others... having nice smooth life ahead? Do you people heard of the 'Wolf' story? A little boy keep telling lies and end up the end no one believe him again and he got his deserts. I really hate liars... I believe those people who keeping telling lies will not come to any good end. Maybe end up he will hurt himself and thus he may lose out alot of things.

Why some people like to take me for granted? It is so tiring cos I am like a person unable to appear in the light always have to hide in a corner unable to come out to see the people.

Should I go for another route.... in a fact a better one. I duno it myself either too. It so complicated. Maybe for my own good, I will choose that route if I can't get anything out from this present situation.

I have my own limits, once a person get overboard. I will be very annoy and even ignore him too.

I couldn't sleep at all again..... why is that so??? These few days have been going thru sleepless night and feeling so listless too. The night is soooo cold and dark, I am all alone in my room.

I am having lots of pressure really have no idea what to do. Feel helpless and like dying.... No one can help me out. These few nights, I have thinking a lots of issues. I have make some decision as well. I am so unhappy.

Is there any more route for me to continue? I am like in a dark cave trying to find my way out. Alot of scenarios are appearing in my mind.

I should try to wake up from this nightmare and get out of this mess soon. Is there any way out for me? I really have no idea at all. I feel the people around me is like lying to me. I find that I cannot understand that person anymore. The gap is getting greater and greater.... I unable to close up the gap. What am I in his eyes? A tool which he can make use of? I can't sense my belonging at all.

I felt very miserable.... having that kind of thoughts. But is it worth it? I do not have the answer too.

All I know when a person being force to a corner he will do unexpected things...

Fate can be a joker sometimes.... agree? Maybe a couple have fate but they may not be meant for each other. When can we know a fate is ended? Any answer??

To build up a relationship is not so simpe.... it require lots of factors involve. Last time I keep thinking that ( Trust + Care + Understanding = L.O.V.E ) but this is not true after all.

Trust is very important. But sometimes I think u keep trusting that person and that person keeps hurting you so why muz you hold on to it. It is so hurt and tiring......... why not give up and get back your own freedom. If the other party dun put in effort so why muz you hold on? This will only hurt yourself and tears will roll down from your cheeks.

Recently, I have been seeing lots of such cases. I'm feeling more and more inconfidence with myself as days go ahead. In fact, there are some people out there cannot be steadfast in a relationship.

What should you do?? I really have no idea at all. Dun tell me need to follow my friend 'kill youselfself' over that kind of person?

Do people wonder what will you become when you die one day? I hope to be an angel... a happy pure & simpe angel staying in each of everyone heart. Anything can happen to everyone.

When a 'person' is really feeling very tired.... wan to have a long sleep. Cos he/she wish to forget everything.... certain things have to come to an end no choice.

So....soooo Sad n0w. Why so many unfortunate events keep happen around me. A friend of mine a gal... landed in hospital.

This morning I was sleeping very soundly suddenly my mobile ring. I dun wan to pick up the call cos I still wan to sleep but ended up I still pick up the call. There came an anxious tone, telling me my Gal friend is in hospital. She tried to kill herself by popping sleeping pills and drank a few glass of wine.

Oh my god... all bcos of her bf again. Sigh... why some guys like to hurt those gals who love them so much. But there is a thing I wil like to emphasis here. I dun think she wan to kill herself... it should be her bf must hurt her too badly if not she would not have the 'courage' to kill herself over this scumbag. Her bf had been cheating her all along since the start of the relationship telling her he dun have another girlfriend. But actual fact is not like that.... that guy has another woman and in fact that woman is pregnant with his child but jus that they not yet ROM. I not too sure I suppose they must be waiting for the child to be born then they go for ROM bah. Why that scumbag must hurt my friend?? She is such a wonderful gal.

I am wondering if I will ever end my life over a guy. I really have no anwer or idea at all... cos such thing need courage. I can also say it is a stupid way too.

But if two person get married bcos of an innocent life a baby not love... what the point of being together. As time goes by surely there will be more frictions than memories. A gal must also try not use baby to contol or force a guy to marry and be with you. This may cause pressure on that guy too.

It is quite contradicting cos guy need to be responsible for their own action. I know one case here.

A guy James (false name) has two gfs A & B. He loves B alot dun want to let her go but A has his child. So he no choice but to give up B and be with A. Is this a noble act or he dun want to shrink his responsibility. Maybe from here we can see that he not really love A as much as B. Sometime I wonder if some woman can put their baby up for adoption or be a single mother. Nowsdays it so common being a single mother. What I can say is baby is innocent mustn't taken lightly.

If one day happen to me I think I will give up my bf to the other woman cos I know baby is innocent and dun wish to hurt the innocent baby. Maybe I am a soft hearted person that why people like to hurt me. I also wan to be a strong gal. In fact I like babies alot... cos they are pure and simple minded not like adults having complicated mind. Relationship game is soooo.... complicated. sigh....

Hereby, I like to tell this gal friend of mine.... dun be too depressed. Jiayou ... friends are there to give you moral support.