I couldn't sleep at all again..... why is that so??? These few days have been going thru sleepless night and feeling so listless too. The night is soooo cold and dark, I am all alone in my room.

I am having lots of pressure really have no idea what to do. Feel helpless and like dying.... No one can help me out. These few nights, I have thinking a lots of issues. I have make some decision as well. I am so unhappy.

Is there any more route for me to continue? I am like in a dark cave trying to find my way out. Alot of scenarios are appearing in my mind.

I should try to wake up from this nightmare and get out of this mess soon. Is there any way out for me? I really have no idea at all. I feel the people around me is like lying to me. I find that I cannot understand that person anymore. The gap is getting greater and greater.... I unable to close up the gap. What am I in his eyes? A tool which he can make use of? I can't sense my belonging at all.

I felt very miserable.... having that kind of thoughts. But is it worth it? I do not have the answer too.

All I know when a person being force to a corner he will do unexpected things...